Sometimes I come to read some of my old posts and it brings back the vivid memories of the moment when I was visiting some of these places and meeting some of the amazing people. I’ve been reflecting on my life, and especially these days, I have a great job and I like the fact that it’s not a job that requires sitting behind a desk, it allows me to travel every week. But with all of these advantages, I noticed I have no life, I leave Monday morning and come back Friday evening, and Sunday I do my laundry and prepare for the coming week. I started to question the modern life more often than before. I think traveling has given me the opportunity to look at things from a different perspective. It has a lot of advantages but the downside is when I feel I am trying to fit into society’s norm and expectations. I guess most of us we do it without reflecting too much on what we do, including myself before I quit my job almost 8 years ago, even when I reflected on life back then, it wasn’t as now, before I was living according to society’s norms and accepting most of it. Now I feel I am an outsider who’s trying to fit into something and it causes me a lot of internal conflict. When I talk to friends and people I know it doesn’t mean they don’t have these thoughts, they only don’t have the conflict because most of them come to accept these norms. Regardless if these norms are right or wrong, just the fact that we don’t think or reflect on them I think can make life easier. May be because I keep asking what’s the true happiness, or because I felt I am happier and I was living when I was traveling than when I am trying to readjusting and pretending to be living,
May be when someone see the pictures on this post, will say what to complain about. I somehow agree, and I keep reminding myself every single day to be grateful for the things I have. At the same time, happiness and content is not about the material things or traveling but living the experience. I visited some of these places and I took these pictures but I hardly had time to sit and enjoy the moment, I was always pressed to go to work, or did not have time after work to sit and enjoy the moment. I remember when I met someone in Ecuador and the man was coming out of the farmland and he was singing and making jokes, his life was simple and I remember he said he had nothing but he was happy. Or the lawyer who quit his job and living in a one room but was making all of us on the boat laughing with his jokes. I keep telling people here, it seems people in other places are poor in the material sense but then it seems they are more content, while here I feel we live to work sadly to the point where we forgot to live.
